Broken Heart

February 5 2018

So things are going not so well with me and my boyfriend now. To be honest, I have no idea what to do. I wish I could’ve fixed it earlier but I was living in the bliss of a golden plated apple that I didn’t realize that it was rotting. I feel so stupid for not seeing the warning signs. I want to go back in time and stop the issue from ever happening but I can’t. I know that it’s all my that any of it happened in the first place. I just wish I’d stopped it before it happened. I want him and I to be happy again. He said he doesn’t want to leave me which I’m hoping lasts until I can figure out what to do but I don’t know what to do. How do you fix a broken relationship? I thought you would just do anything to prove your love but I apparently went too far on that and now he’s even more upset. I’ve never been good at this stuff. I’ve never been in a relationship like this before. I don’t know what to do. He makes me so happy but he doesn’t believe that anymore. I just want to prove it to him but I don’t know how. If it’s possible could someone please post a comment of advice. I want to prove it and I can’t do what I did before. Please someone help me. I feel like I’m drowning and no one is there to pull me from the water and the one person who I feel should help is walking up the beach and away from me like he doesn’t see me flailing searching for a way to get to him. I feel like Evan from Dear Evan Hansen when he fell from the tree except I don’t have Connor to come save me. I just have an arm that’s growing numb. Please please help me. I really need it. Thanks for reading.